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Part Two | Goals

If you missed Part One

Goals

I like goals, and  wishes too.

Prayers, faith, hope mean a lot to me as well

Where a Dreamer sees one moment, in the future, I see

steps along a path, many steps!

And I am trying to discern which way to go.

Then out comes that fun word

FOCUS

Ha! I think I figured it out..sorta 😉

The worry, indecision and stress Ignites when that focus

slips away and yet the focus is not in the moment!

It’s not in the NOW at all. It is way, way ahead in the future, and the plan, or path is based on your Goals + Past experience.

We receive our motivation from our past failures.

We set forth on a new path into the future of change and….

WAIT

Where did NOW go? What happened to the FLOW?

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Where is the part where the decisions fly quickly and positive energy sparks, the timing feels right and obstacles melt away?

It resides IN THAT CLEAR FOCUS

(Rewind to a month ago)

In 12 days time, I managed to dismantle so much, just by losing sight of my goals. Yup, that fast.

I’d quit caffeine, bad sugar and sweets. I’d cut back on smoking and my medications that I felt had begun to do more harm than good. I was exercising, eating well, sleeping well. I was able to find balance! Mixing in nature, lots of sunshine and music, life finally seemed to have a rhythm to it all. Things were finally moving forward, FLOWING AGAIN.

The true essence of now in my mind had finally set in

Until one fateful night, where I made a careless choice.

Spiraling down, so fast I couldn’t hardly keep up!

Holy cow man.. there went three doctors appointments, a job interview and all our weekly activities. I had a flat tire, my patience ran thin with the kids, my business was suffering neglect, the pets were not getting the attention they deserved. The weather changed and all the warm clothes were piled up in the laundry room. The yard became a jungle, the house was a mess. I accidentally ( and on a few occasions on purpose) broke all kinds of stuff because I was hasty or mad or neglectful or whimsical…..

Boils down to this~ life can be nothing but a big house of cards, tumbling away into oblivion at this point.

CRAZINESS

That one simple moment, the loss of a goal, can trickle so far and wide. That is the other AH HA moment….

When to quit, when to intelligibly move in another direction or when to drive straight ahead.

Timing disappears, stress reigns and conflicts are everywhere  Negativity

Being able to see your path along the way to a destination. The clarity of it all, setting forth toward your goal – that’s when it flips – the past falls away

~The future holds no worries~

And the self feels the present and truly knows  the way to flow.

It is only then I can breathe easy, even if things on the outside look bleak. That is the moment I precisely know things will fall into place.

What I struggle to do is explain this to other people in my life. I’m not mean or uncaring or insensitive or even without emotion, it’s just that these feelings aren’t what I mean when my gut feels the FLOW

EGO=EMOTIONS=LOSS OF YOUR GOAL=NEGATION OF FLOW

You do not go on a road trip with out some sort of destination in mind. Or into the ocean, or the sky…why would our lives be any different?

Why would someone hinder my positive forward motion,  passing it off as maybe love (possessions) seemingly apparent to fill a void (not foster growth)? When this type of behavior is expected of me (ridiculous displays of devotion)

I shut down

To many people, due to my wide array of interests and ideas, I usually seem unfocused and all over the place. It is because those who judge and criticize can not wrap their head around the goals and dreams I am working hard to achieve.

My biggest challenge, I have now discovered, is not in reaching those goals. It is learning to stay focused and unwavering while fending off the put-downs. It is learning to fend off with out pissing off. I get so frustrated when I’m misunderstood. I can only explain so much, I can only adapt so much, before I utterly

FREAK OUT

I feel like a feral cat someone is trying to put in a cage, being lured by warmth, comfort and that fancy stuff out of a can on a pedastle plate  ( don’t you just love manipulation at the expense of others selfish wants?)

I cannot help

THE WAY I MUST FLOW

So please, If you have an agenda, undoubtedly I will react

And it wont be pretty

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Timeless

How can it be

after all this time

a connection so strong

It knows  of no lines

drawn in the sand

or boundaries laid by our own hand

in a universe that moves so fast

yet stands still, within our grasp

giving us one more

CHANCE

wow, how blessed are we

to have re-connected in the stormy seas

of insanity and drama

brought upon our karma

Yet

the true test is not

what happens to us

but what we do

in spite of the challenges

brought upon us

and our friend “KARMA”

is waiting to see

if we rise to the top

of the rough and tumbling  sea

because it is offering us

a blessing in disguise

It’s up to us

to read between the lines

of life’s trials and tribulations

and a second chance

to seize the universe’s design

NM 10-14-14

Diving Boards and Boarding Passes

This is going to be quick. I’m sorry I’ve not posted sooner. It’s been a chaotic few days….

My friend, Nicholas had an amazing post and I want to share it with you today.

nicholasdagostino.com/two-sides-one-coin

Please go and read this post, and then read as many as you can!

He inspired me to finally publish this blog, as I was fearful. Baring your soul to the world is a bit intimidating!

Each and every day, he spends his time uplifting others. His message, his attitude, his candor are all AMAZING!

So, what does that have to do with diving boards?

Our OUTLOOK

Are you the type to stick a toe in and wade down, or do you just jump right in?

Can you dive off the high dive? or only the side of the pool?

Do you check the depths of the water or go full-boar, head first?

These are questions that relate to life as well. It’s that balance we all try to achieve on a daily basis.

And what I’ve learned is getting a toe wet first accomplishes nothing for me! Diving in right away, I always find myself injured lol, because usually the “water” wasn’t deep enough, and of course I forgot to check!

That is my biggest challenge on a daily basis! Blogs like nicholasdagostino.com  help me stay motivated and at the same time promote focus and balance.

I highly recommend you listen to his poem, titled “Gravity”, read his blog and begin your journey.

His book is titled “I’M READY FOR TAKEOFF” and he has begun a great new email campaign, so go now and get your BOARDING PACT and begin your new life! You will be so glad you did!

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Promises Shromises

You Promised

to keep me safe

to care for me

to never leave

You said you loved me

more than anyone

We built our lives, our dreams

together

and it’s so wrong

your aren’t here

I don’t know what to do now

I hate fear

I mourn for normalcy

I cry for my family

I yearn to feel you close

I feel lost, abandoned

I pray for the Lord

to heal our broken souls

To learn to trust again

To learn to feel safe again

It wasn’t supposed to

be this way

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Unique Souls | Oneness

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Unique Souls

Lives

Experiences

Based in perspective

combined with expectation

Labels

Names, categories, things

grouping together in a way

to invoke understanding, familiarity

So we know what to expect

that expectation is formed based on

past experience joined with

Perspective, or lack of

People can stare at the same painting

and ALL OF THEM will have a

different experience

Some may have an emotional connection

deep from with-in

Love, sadness, anger, joy, fear

Others will feel absolutely nothing

What a range that is!

On and on they vary

UNIQUE

Best label of all

to describe all of our souls

Unique=Oneness

Clarity! Calm Seas Ahead!

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I feel so much better now

Storm has finally passed

Clarity, in spite of the mess

My path

Oh thank you for the blessings

Now it’s time to keep forward motion

I see calm seas ahead of me

And the waves

will come and go

At least i know

my ship can weather the storms

Nature’s fury is unpredictable

My choices and reactions

need no longer be

^^ LOOK AROUND ^^

I’ve done it! I’ve made it!

The sun warms my face

WE ARE SAFE

The next time around

I KNOW

I’ll TRUST my faith

I’ll RELY on my resolve

I’ll BE impenetrable

BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO BE

NM 10-07-14

Part one|The Moment

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That “Living in the Now” thing, yeah, that’s the one …

If you’re a fix-it junkie, then you’ve probably tried to fix yourself at one point. Hopefully you have succeeded! But, if you’re like me, it’s still a work in progress
Which brings me to the present

My flow got discombobulated two weeks ago,  all by myself.
I watched a cumulative effect of work,  planning, and dedication slip away SO FAST and by my own choices.
Kind of like busting your butt on the ice *BOOM* FLOW DISRUPTION
Oh and how the effect trickles.
Now you could blame the ice or the fall, but in reality you could have used caution. Unawareness breeds “accidents ” & just because we didn’t do it on purpose we still have choices.

And the one thing I got from all of this:
You miss the moment when you focus on the moment.
Makes sense? No? I hear ya –
Let me break it down. If I focus on being “in the moment” living in the present, that mere focus becomes an obstacle.
Think Chinese handcuffs. And if you’re a fixer, a perfectionist, a planner, this moment stuff feels too irresponsible. We can’t be living in the moment all of the time – or can we?

NM

It’s GAME DAY + Who Knew we are SO COOL?

WVU Band State

Today should be exciting, it’s a BIG GAME DAY, bigger, than say, a normal GAME DAY 😉  Here’s why:

West Virginia Mountaineers vs Kansas Jayhawks Preview: Atonement & Revenge

By Abpriddy on Oct 4 2014, 7:00a

“It was rock bottom. Before a smattering of fans inside a field ringed by a running track, the West Virginia Mountaineers put for the their most embarrassing performance in recent memory, losing to the Kansas Jayhawks and handing coach Charlie Weis what would be his only Big 12 win. The memories of that putrid performance still linger near the surface for this Mountaineer team and the disgust is palpable every time coach Dana Holgorsen is forced to hold his nose and speak of the unspeakable.

Atonement begins in earnest now.”

I can’t wait. I’m going to go watch with some friends later.

Even more fun? Last night on the news (can’t find a link:( ) I heard WVU fans used the 3rd HIGHEST amount of DATA in the NATION last week, beating NFL usage per team. THAT’S some team spirit! The cell towers can’t keep up 😀

Happy Saturday EVERYONE!

And for those out there on a special ride today

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Have a safe and fun ride!

Pieces of me, scattered everywhere, & I left them there!

Pieces of me scattered everywhere
Please don’t misunderstand –
I LEFT THEM THERE!!
Everything spread far and wide
I overwhelm myself, quite well sometimes
Unwitting, yet by choice
So much so I find myself
Lost …... I want to run and hide!
Just for a moment, can’t I pop inside?
Let the storm die down
Recharge the batteries
Upgrade the program?
Come on, Something?
There are just too many things
To enter my mind
And much to my contention
My heart wins time after time
Because people give back
Unlike a book, a clean room, or a
a great productive day

I bind my own way
I shut some doors rather than
Allow them to open wide
Im afraid to get attached
To that happy|content feeling
Deep down inside
In a place no science
Can seem to pinpoint
Yet at times roars like a giant

Get up, go this way, NO ONE SAID
STAY

So you gather your thoughts
wishing they’d all be gone

Then it got quiet
Right then, I knew I’d had it all wrong!
So many feelings and emotions
Fighting your strength
Focus on the now
Not any crazy notions of
How! How! How!

Come on, figure it out big girl
You’re on your own now

NM 9-2-14

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Do you know where I can locate a “Karmic Timing” Reset Button?

 

https://www.flickr.com/photos/flattop341/224175613/in/photostream/

Everything is a little off.

Reset desired!

This is how I feel, except my fear is drowning 🙁

“I think about my fear of motion which i never could explain some other fool across the ocean years ago must have crashed his little airplane how long till my soul gets it right can any human being ever reach that kind of light i call on the resting soul of galileo king of night vision king of insight”

Indigo Girls- excerpt from Galileo- on AZ Lyrics

You know where to locate that button, you let me know!

Until then I’m off hunting on my own

NM 10-01-14