All posts by Nicole

Baby Girl

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Don’t know where to start

I broke your heart

You broke mine

None of this is fine

Wish I could turn back time

Cradle you in my arms

sing lullabies to you

bathe in your charms

Baby Girl I miss you

Hope one day you do too

Life will never be the same

With out you

I could never make you happy

didn’t know how

to get inside

your beautiful heart

and glorious mind

Hope one day you’ll know

I tried my very best

Never thought i’d lose you

Not in a million years

can’t hardly write this

through the tears

NM

11-07-14

1:11

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As I sit here on the couch

thinking about how much I miss you

I get up finally, forcing myself to bed

Look at the clock right at 1:11, Who knew?

That here you are, your spirit surrounds

No matter that this

is the day you left

our Earthly Grounds

~~~~~~~

It’s been five years today

Hard to fathom, my friend

You always had such a way

To let us all know

how special we were

How much you cared

Never making anyone feel

you didn’t have the time to spare

Up and down I was all night

3:58 am, 5:15 again

You filled my thoughts and my dreams

not really sure which was real

or not what it seems

I shed tears and hug my heart

so much has changed

since our long ago start

Wishing I knew

how to turn back time

So I could sit at the kitchen table

One last time

And hear your laughter

See your smile

Feel your warmth

If only for a little while

NM

11-13-14

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Trying

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I don’t want to think about you

Trying too hard, I suppose?

We can’t go backwards

but the reminders come in droves

Happier than I’ve ever been

then I see you, and wonder

Do we need to do this

or did we make a huge

BLUNDER

So much has changed in such a

short amount of time

New lives, jobs, people

How is it life turns on a dime?

Everywhere I go, everywhere I look

Things we shared are seeping into my mind

Making me think if we took

a union truly amazing and tossed it aside

Enter insecurity and doubt

and what I think I know

life should be about

I want to go away

though, each time I try

this town screams

STAY

Trying, trying to

ignore it all anyway

NM

11-7-14

Diamonds and Jade

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Pretty girl, How are things?

Changes in you I’ve not seen

Different? You seem…

Shiny lights all around

Your body, your smile, your eyes

Will you share?

Do you care?

Off you go

a leaf blowing in

a November wind

Will you float back down

to the river’s bend?

Sail, sail with me down

to the river’s end

Time is on our side

We’ll be to

the Sea tomorrow

The world is wide

open to possibilities

that are endless

As the horizon fades while

we head out on glistening waves

of Diamonds and Jade

11-5-14

Sad, Mad, Glad

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Why do people want to see
People stuck in misery
Why do they want to hurt
you after they’ve drug you
Through the dirt

Why would anyone cling to
anger and hate
Be a bully, be mean, be irate

Threaten a roof over someone’s head
Time and again for no reason
When you have a place of your own now
Is it simply just the season?

Why, when there are children who care
And want to feel safe in their home
Who just want peace and happiness
Who cared for you like their own?

Do you get a rise out of fear and pain

Do the threats make you feel bigger

Can you not refrain

From stomping your feet

every time you don’t get your way

Undermine forward movement
Unless it’s your own
To relish being an ass
Instead of the man I’d known

All because you can’t handle your own pain

Your own demons,your own guilt your own suffering

Do you feel bigger now

knowing you sent us running

Just know, no matter what you throw my way

I will always land on my feet

My spirit will never be broken

I will always live in love and peace

For I know what’s right and

I know what’s in my heart

I know what good people deserve

And I know bad people

need help even more

I pity your soul

And the day

you meet your maker

River’s Flow

RIVERS FLOW

Life sure can be funny

of letting you know which way

things will go

As you watch your plans

go completely astray

In the currents flow

of tomorrow and yesterday

~ ~ ~

In the past I used to

get so upset

worked so hard for what

I wanted to get

Not realizing all

the blood and sweat

Were for something else

I’d not yet

Foreseen,

ya know what I mean?

~ ~ ~

Now as I  grow older

I finally learned to shoulder

the wishes and dreams

floating away downstream

realizing

nothing is what it seems

~ ~ ~

Living in the present moment

absorbing the bits and smidgens

of smiles, blessings and bestowments

of love and riches

These times used to pass me by

as life went on around me

While I’d plan where the future lied

The world cried out

Hey, JOIN ME

 ~ ~ ~

The time to second guess U-turns

has finally passed on forever

I’ll not go back to the place

when i’m crying over whether

I’ve made the right choice

If, maybe I shouldn’t have used my voice

Flourishing and nourishing

as the river flows

leading me to the unknown

adventures of the universe

~ ~ ~

Wait! I can’t forget

to sing a verse before I go

and enjoy the upcoming show

About a King, and ends with “know”

The rest ringing out

all through the riverboat

And that’s what we need

to say to ourselves

When chaos and doubt announce

their arrival

Unwelcome guests, not on our

manifest

No time for us to wait

They’re about to close the gate!

~ ~ ~

Alas, my journey has begun

with the river as my captain

and the moon as my guide

each step bringing me closer

to the destination

Just remember to

Enjoy the Ride!

NM

Anticipation

Thoughts of us

swirl around my head

Visions of you and me

Together on our new journey

We are obstacle free!

Beginning our life

as it should be

Cherishing every moment

as a Gift from Above

Never questioning or looking back

wondering is this really

LOVE

Simple and true

Honest through and through

Doubt is officially erased

As we enter our next phase

Moving forward with zeal

without any doubt of what’s real

Riding the momentum wave

toward our new life unfolding

Never questioning the road that has been paved

and illuminated brightly before us

Right now, it’s time to give thanks

and a big reward for

US

NM

Searching and Searching

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Searching and searching, I have been, for you my love

Wondering and waiting, on the Man Above

To lead you to me, or me to you

Our distance is nothing compared to

what we’ve been through

Wars and plagues

Other’s blind rage

Yet through each millennia

We reconnect

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I am in the Stars

although never really too far

As Time is just a figment

of our limited understanding

of what is true and real

Our general misunderstanding

of what the world wants us to feel

That we reconnected now

is truly perfect timing

in a world that is falling apart

Not knowing it’s climbing

out of the hole

it has put us all in

I wish, I hope I pray

we can be soon, chin to chin

My gaze fixed on yours

once again strengthening our connection

This time, and every time thereafter

may we hold tight to our reflections

Of our past, present and future

all tied together as one

No matter the intruder

we will not be overcome

By worldly struggle and strife

that is tossed our way

Since you and I both know

there isn’t a day

we’re not truly together

in some kind of way

NM 10-27-14

Hey Mister Universe

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Hey Mister Universe

can you hear me?

When you look down

what do you see?

We call to you

by many different names

Even though

our thoughts and prayers

are mainly the same

Divided we can be

did you know the Baptists alone

have over 200 denominations to honor thee?

Do you wonder why we fight

and wallow in our plight?

Do you feel sad when

you witness all the drama

all of those that are mad?

You bestowed upon us

FREE WILL

and the power of choice

Yet those who choose the dark side

revel in taking our voice!

Others choose strength and virtue

integrity and faith

Knowing our FREEDOM to CHOOSE

is not in any man’s power to determine our

FATE

I ask you to hear me today

as I pray for those

who’ve gone astray

I pray for souls

mired in hate and pain

PLEASE let them know

they have NOTHING to gain

You are honored and revered

in so many ways

Our love for you must outweigh

those who use you

for their agenda & personal gain

I promise you on this day

to NEVER allow

my faith to be swayed

To always remember I am loved and NEVER alone

To live up to the mission

you embedded in my unique code

To pass along your message

through love and empathy

Until I begin my passage home

Thank you Mister Universe

for this chance

to help others, to give back

TO TAKE A STANCE

Thank you as well

for the ability to accomplish my goals

no matter how hard it may seem

You know me so very well

You know I’ll achieve my

DREAMS!

NM 10-23-14

Please take a moment to watch the video below

and let it’s message sink into your soul

You are BEAUTIFUL

You are LOVED

You are here  for a REASON

 

from Mateusz M youtube channel

Serendipity Tree

 

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When you look at a tree
You might not see serendipity
But think for a minute about
Living life in doubt
Never reaching above
Not finding anything you love
Back to the trees
that go on and on
without any regard
To the challenges it faces
Weathering all seasons
The changes it takes in stride
Knowing the cycle it must endure
Simply to survive
It reacts to the sun and wind
Giving us much needed air
It can produce food to no end
Its fruits it must bear
By design
It branches out
In many different directions
No doubt
Knowing a liner path
Is not the way
To go about survival
After hibernation
Planning it’s revival
On and on the cycle goes
More and more branches
Look at every which way they go
Up and out, reaching high
Up to the sky
The only clues are when
It meets its demise
You can view it’s struggle
Looking on the inside
But until that moment
All I can see
Is the simple bliss
Of serendipity