Just a quick update, if anyone is still out there.
The past 9 months have been full of challenges. The best part, is coming through with more knowledge and strength! Unfortunately, during this time, my hobbies had to take a backseat.
Currently, I am working 2 jobs, as well as dealing with a plethora of family issues. I still have little free time, but the call to write again has arrived. I hope to post some new work in the next couple of weeks.
Let me know your still out there by leaving me a comment below!
As a 40-something single mom, I find it’s difficult to meet new people. Even more challenging, is to turn the people I meet into friends. Men seem to have an ulterior motive. Women seem overwhelmed with life’s burdens.
In my particular geographic area, I find it is challenging to find people with a positive outlook on life and who are addiction-free. Or they have controlling partners. Or insecure with having a single friend around their husbands (I don’t want to steal your man, I promise) Or, they are the cheaters. Or they are addicted to drama and gossip or social media rumors…..truly the list could go on and on.
The internet does enable me to find many like-minded souls, yet many are far away. It would be nice to have someone I could meet for coffee. Someone to walk along the river and chat with. Someone to share the joys and challenges of life.
Who’d have thought that as hard as it is to find someone to date, it is even harder to make a new friend IRL.
If you have any suggestions, I would love to hear from you! Leave me a comment and let me know 🙂
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Getting Lost and Directions
When I started this blog, I had all sorts of ideas. Poetry was not one of them 🙂
Yet, here I am. What happened at first was exciting and overwhelming. I did not anticipate my jumbled, often contradictory feelings, thrown into fragments, could even be considered poetry or prose. I most definitely did not expect to reach people, touch people, help people. I simply was not prepared. I felt too vulnerable, and insecure.
I began to hold back my feelings. I was insecure about my negative/dark thoughts and writing. I felt responsible, self-conscious and placed unnecessary expectations on myself.
I read information about marketing, tried to master the ever-changing SEO dance, joined the ‘look-at-me’ brigade…it sucked. It ruined the whole process, my entire mission.
I decided to take a step back. I took a break and focused on starting a dream of mine, a home delivery cooking business. I also began to focus more on QEDomains, another business I would like to see get off the ground.
Then Life decided to throw a fit, akin to a 2 year old’s temper-tantrum. Health issues, family drama and financial issues ensued. I was in the middle of home-schooling, trying to find work and ran out of money for anything on the extra list.
Then I was missed?! I was blown away by the feedback. It just took awhile to sink in. I was not feeling very worthy, was experiencing too much loss and grief to feel like I could help or contribute to anyone. Most of the feedback I’ve experienced has been on Twitter. It is a wild place. One, where surprisingly, which I have found compassion, empathy and connection. Touching people with my words has been humbling.
Thankfully, as all things seem to do, the storm calmed. Positive forward motion was now possible. My Muse began to sing again.
Knowing I can help is what has encouraged me to continue to post my poems and basically my journal. Hearing from you is what will enable my site to flourish. Connecting with other like-minded souls is the best part
Moving forward, what I hope to accomplish is putting my thoughts, poems, photos, recipes, drawings, paintings and other creations out there with no regard to appeal or popularity. If the world likes it, fantastic! If not, well that’s fantastic too. Self-reliance is my goal. Basing our worth on others needs, wants, judgments or expectations/rules is a recipe for disaster. No one ever benefits.
And on this journey, when I falter, or need a pep talk, or have to vent and rant, my pen will once again hit the paper. I’ll write freely like I used to. I’ll let my jumbled emotions flow. I’ll let go of worrying about what people think. I’m letting go of ridicule, systems, formulas and agendas. I look forward to what has yet to unfold.
If you made it this far, wow, YOU ROCK! I thank you for you time and attention. It means a lot to me
When I started posting poetry, most of the poems were from a collection of jottings and journaling. Memories of years gone by. I did begin writing some new material, yet I felt there was more I wanted to explore.
The last few months, mingled in with holidays, SNOW, a bunch of other funky stuff, MORE SNOW, you get my drift ( lol couldn’t help it 😉 ) I’ve been writing, noticing, listening, pondering.
Playing with perspectives is a big part of it. Choices based on Or not depending on the choiceof Societies RULES. Following the pack, being like EVERYONE ELSE or not. It’s simple and extremely difficult at the same time.
My Cousin said something to me that was one of those perspective changing moments. I can’t even remember exactly how he said it. Basically, past hurts prevent future experiences.
We write our own story every day. It can be what ever we choose.
How often do we remember that, throughout our hectic day?
Currently I’m working on posting some random writing, poems, affirmations and recipes. Mostly I’m working on my story and enjoying the arrival of spring.
Also, cooking is a hobby of mine, an edible science project! I would love your feedback. (I just need to start taking more pictures) Always seems better as a collaborative effort.
Looking around Twitter, believe it or not, I find so many beautiful things to use each and every day.
I’m going to compile a list of people to follow, post in with the next affirmation and hopefully each one of you can find someone to help motivate and encourage you. You can never have too many cheerleaders!
This is one I made up years ago, when I was starting a business. For the entrepreneurs out there, you know how hard and grueling the first year can be.
This is my way of seeing the beauty in each and every day!
By Divine Right
May all that is allotted to me
Present itself
May I embrace love
May I not judge
May I accept the abundant gifts
the universe has to give
Now and always
Try it! Or any affirmation that suits you and feels wonderful
Please go and read this post, and then read as many as you can!
He inspired me to finally publish this blog, as I was fearful. Baring your soul to the world is a bit intimidating!
Each and every day, he spends his time uplifting others. His message, his attitude, his candor are all AMAZING!
So, what does that have to do with diving boards?
Our OUTLOOK
Are you the type to stick a toe in and wade down, or do you just jump right in?
Can you dive off the high dive? or only the side of the pool?
Do you check the depths of the water or go full-boar, head first?
These are questions that relate to life as well. It’s that balance we all try to achieve on a daily basis.
And what I’ve learned is getting a toe wet first accomplishes nothing for me! Diving in right away, I always find myself injured lol, because usually the “water” wasn’t deep enough, and of course I forgot to check!
That is my biggest challenge on a daily basis! Blogs like nicholasdagostino.com help me stay motivated and at the same time promote focus and balance.
I highly recommend you listen to his poem, titled “Gravity”, read his blog and begin your journey.
His book is titled “I’M READY FOR TAKEOFF” and he has begun a great new email campaign, so go now and get your BOARDING PACT and begin your new life! You will be so glad you did!
That “Living in the Now” thing, yeah, that’s the one …
If you’re a fix-it junkie, then you’ve probably tried to fix yourself at one point. Hopefully you have succeeded! But, if you’re like me, it’s still a work in progress
Which brings me to the present
My flow got discombobulated two weeks ago, all by myself.
I watched a cumulative effect of work, planning, and dedication slip away SO FAST and by my own choices.
Kind of like busting your butt on the ice *BOOM* FLOW DISRUPTION
Oh and how the effect trickles.
Now you could blame the ice or the fall, but in reality you could have used caution. Unawareness breeds “accidents ” & just because we didn’t do it on purpose we still have choices.
And the one thing I got from all of this: You miss the moment when you focus on the moment. Makes sense? No? I hear ya –
Let me break it down. If I focus on being “in the moment” living in the present, that mere focus becomes an obstacle.
Think Chinese handcuffs. And if you’re a fixer, a perfectionist, a planner, this moment stuff feels too irresponsible. We can’t be living in the moment all of the time – or can we?
I was going to post something funny today, but the Universe knows better apparently
I can’t get this out of my head
A lot of people I’ve seen this week are out there like me realizing, finally, there is a way to survive in this world on our creativity. Another group is great at marketing, social networking and sees this as a fun way to help others and make money.
Now, not everyone is this way. Those who are can surely stand out, and do.
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