Tiny specks of sand
one or two, we barely feel
Blasting us at 60mph..oh man…:(
run with zeal!!!!
Take shelter from the storm
protect your eyes, ears and nose
succumb to fear
when is my new day near?
And then the storm subsides
you feel the sun on your skin
The scream of the wind
is gone
Silence…..
the air is clear!
A new day is here!!!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Oh no, more clouds
Why? oh Lord, why now?
Your universe is chucking
Boulders
at me, thinking I’ve got
linebacker shoulders
So worn and beat down
How is it, that I’ve not drowned??????
Save me save me SAVE ME SAVE ME
CAN’T YOU HEAR ME SCREAM?
PLEASE Please
I’m down on my knees
begging for you
to rescue me
and I sink
become so still
no sounds, none at all
just darkness
and
FAITH
Oh there it is!
Hallelujah!
a tiny string
I can barely reach
feels like 1lb test
couldn’t help even a flea!
Really?
and then i hear
I hear myself SCREAM
from deep down inside
NO
NO
NO
NO
NO
I WILL NOT ACCEPT THIS
PLIGHT
I will grab that tiny string
I WILL FIGHT
Quitting is forbidden
Fear MUST GO
Pain and sorrow
friends, no longer foes
I’m smarter and stronger
than ever before
boot camp and college
wrapped up in courage
and change
taking me places…..
Oh wow, I’ll never be the same 🙂
Because the darkness
CRACKED
When I chose to Fight
and that glimpse
that glimpse of light
I knew I had to
FIGHT
to cling to
UNWAVERING FAITH
To shower others with LOVE
and kindness, and forget
my worries
as I try to soothe and calm their pain
trying to hold on
living life through
LOVE
while I continue to rise above
The boulders, maybe now
I’ve got those linebacker shoulders
On the way….
NM 09-15-14
This poem reminds me of Nietzsche’s quote “That which does not kill us makes us stronger”. I am still processing both your poem and this quote now in intertwined tandem! Needing pain to learn or grow in FAITH or otherwise is a heavy concept. I do love the poem though and my empathetic heart doesn’t want you specifically to go through trials and tribulations…and I barely know you. I know you enough that I don’t want you to experience them though! Thinking of you dreaming of laying on the beach with your eyes closed on the couch is a much more pleasant thought. A BETTER wish for you…it means that your mind is uncluttered enough to effectively have such a pleasant thought…here’s to your mental pleasantries 🙂
What a vivid description of the journey through life! At least for many.
Reminds me the day my husband died. I wrote a post about it called ‘In Comes the Storm’. I shared how the storm threatened to tear apart the last remaining fragile threads of my faith. When such a loss occurs, (when a storm hits), sometimes all’s we can do, whether standing or kneeling, is to endure while the storm passes.
And through the storms, they can make our hearts softer and more open with a tougher layer of ‘skin’. Or the opposite. Thinner skin and a hardened heart.
I’ve had both in my life. : )
Thanks for sharing the link to this!
Each person’s experience of loss is so different,yet a common thread runs through all of us.
This is one of those moments for me. It came pouring out of me at the craziest moment.
I’m glad you liked it Samantha and really appreciate your praise!